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ImmaRosewithout Thorns
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Friday, October 10, 2008
It’s been hard for me this few days, crying spree. Wearing a mask to school, face my family and friends. In class today, I almost drop my tears lucky I manage to save it back. I might be laughing and smiling, but deep down, im just trying to deceive myself. I was with him all this while after I’ve met him after the release from Girls’ Home. Feeling kind of uneasy, life without him. I have to move on with my life. My beloved friends out there who likes to play my flabby arms, im going on intensive diet cos I kinda lose some confidence here. Muhahahahaha =) Losing faith in r/s. Now I feel that fallin in love is actually fallin into traps. I rem one of my ex-bf told me that falling in love is the most wonderful feeling. RUBBISH!! I feel that it’s only a moment of joy before the disaster come. Majority will end it sadly and sometimes vigorously. Even husbands and wives, heard and encountered too many sad stories of theirs. Now I am having PHILOPHOBIA which means fear of falling in love or being in love! Women fear most is to get the wrong husband. I do not want to cry with my children in future. Even it’s not happening now, but I seem to be able to foresee it. Cos, Men are all the same!!! Not to stereotype but maybe im suai enough to meet all the guys that is like that which has lead me to this conclusion. People say that out of 10, there is only 1 good guy. Will I get this “1”guy? HENCE, Valentine’s Day is NO LONGER a day for me anymore but a day, to do my job, sending flowers around and taking pictures of the happiness on their faces. My new life chapter : 100% on my career and studies! Will enjoy life to the fullest. I am single but NOT available, Haha, sound soO cool :P I'm lyk alr writing an essay, my RJ also never write this long, ok i shall stop my grandmother story for now. Chow! Posted by Shermane Ten at 11:16 PM
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Shermane Ten